Just Jas

"If anything can go wrong, it will," Capt. Edward A. Murphy, USAF, 1949.

I would ask "what more could go wrong" but I think Murphy has already jinxed me enough.

I had my first counseling session yesterday. It went well. It is going to be weekly, only the next session won't be until August 9. Apparently, I caught him just before he left on a two-week vacation. Oh well, I've dealt with this stuff for six years, what's another two weeks?

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I don't know when this is all going to end. For all I know it may never end. Michelle started having issues with major leakage from her feeding tube again yesterday. She and her father went to the local ER to try to get it taken care of. They spent all afternoon there. Somewhere around 2 or 3 this morning, Michelle and her father drove up to San Francisco, because the leaking got worse. She has now been re-admitted to the hospital. There is even a question of whether or not her father will leave ...

On July 30, 2009, my father-in-law arrived to help take care of Michelle.

On July 20, 2010, my father-in-law is heading back home.

Michelle isn't in the hospital, which is good. She is, still dealing with major medical issues, though. She has been going to the hospital frequently, and has had a number of hospital visits during his stay. She has a feeding tube that needs to be re-bandaged twice a day, and I can only do it once a day during the week due to my schedule. What ...

Ok. I finally had enough. I'm so tired of everything. I have been lacking desire to do much of anything, and losing myself in escapism. It has been adversely affecting every area of my life. I know I need to do something before I completely lose it. I know and trust that God has been carrying me through, but this cross has been a heavy load.

I found a counseling center near my office, the only one within walking distance. As I take the bus to and from work, and am not home during the ...

Yes, we have blogs here. I thought it was time that someone tried to use then.

I know, I haven't been around as much lately. Things with Michelle and work have me feeling like I'm going insane at times. Michelle's health is a constant issue that we have to struggle with pretty much daily. Her father has been staying with us helping for almost a year now, which is a struggle as well. It is great having his help, and I really appreciate it, but it isn't easy living with him.
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